I'll cry a happy tear

Don't want to corrupt
The memories of the past
By seeing you again
One last, One last time

Don't do it for the pity
As I try to make it last
I know, It won't
It won't go on forever

If what we had was friendship
And we were just good friends
Then I guess, this is a bad friendship
And it might as well end

One wish that you owe me
Will be my debt on you
Reminding you, your weakness
To keep in touch, It takes two

I'll miss a proper goodbye
But know, I only wish you the best
Selfishly, from your aloofness
Maybe I can now be at rest

You say your tear glands dried up
And there is no room for fear
But life is strange, and it will
To unknown pastures, steer

One day you will love someone
Enough to not let go
And in that day, coz you can't
For you, I'll cry a happy tear

ASHES FROM A LIT CIGARETTE

Whisper in my ear that there will be someone
At least someone who will not walk away
And I'll believe you , with a heavy heart
Even if I think it will never be

Something that didn't last long
But lasted longer than the last
Tell me that this is really the last time
Life won't always repeat the past

Tell me, I won't regret waiting for this long
Coz someone will come along
Tell me, I will be proven wrong
That this will be my last song

That someday when I go back to my bed
It won't be cold, There will linger another smell
That there will be another beating heart
And I'll be part of a presence

Then, I might be able to reason with my head
Or I might addict myself instead
But I'll feel alright tucked in your arm
And in that moment I'll learn to be calm

No, No, don't bring the stars to me
Sometimes, Just think of me
No, don't be my sunshine
Just hide me from the darkness

My insides are burning ,
And dropping ashes from a lit cigarette
Layer by layer I'm diminishing
Layer by layer still hoping for love

Tell me that before it burns out
I'll find in someone a friend
Tell me that I won't burn out
Tell me that this is not the end

Instead Of

As I lay beside you
Staring at half of your face
The other half inserted in the pillow
I tiny touch you
And as you go an inch away
I already miss you

I told you don't sleep away from me tonight
But I want to push you away
Im caught in between stealing a moment of tenderness 

And the emotion that it brings
What are you doing to me ?

I love the smell that comes from your kiss
Love how you tremble with my touch
How you clench and you wrench
And then you slowly fall asleep
I love how you sleep

How you sheepishly hold my hands
How you secretly touch my feet
Love how you grab me from the back
And how you walk with me on the street

I guess the list is endless
And it's all just an excuse
To wrap all of it into
Things that I love about you
Instead of just saying I love you !

A Bird with the fear of heights .....

When my emotions run deeper
When I want to just be
I hope that you'll understand
Without a word to say

When I cannot reach you at a distance
But from feeling what i feel
That doesn't take away
When I'm having a bad hair day

When my tea is too hot *
And I bump my toe against the bed *
When I bite my tongue
And when a single mosquito turns me red

When I bang my head against a glass wall
That I thought wasn't there
When I make an egg 
That on the sunny side up doesn't fall

When there is nothing left to find
When people leave me behind
When even strangers are not kind
When I loose my mind

With the tiniest of things
I want you to linger
Stay and say I'm there
When I cut my little finger

When I hide into my shell
Say, You'll never leave me out of your sights
I don't want to be
A bird with the fear of heights

Sometimes Shadows None

Bright lights and under them

Sometimes three, sometimes one 

Sometimes shadows none

Deep breathing , loud and clear

Quiet fractals, filled with fear

Sitting on a bench under the sun 

With the cold my eyes overflow 

Like its trying to tell me somethin'

See people walk by in groups of two or more 

Cyclists with their headphones for company 

Old lady's, hand in hand 

And I'm by myself

As the light starts to evade 

And the warmth from the sun starts to fade

Like you , it starts to leave me too 

It moves on to shine on the next bench , blue 

Be your truth , go free

Get lost and then be found 

Translucent images that surround 

Your smell , your touch and sound 

Same old day 

But time changes by the tick

And in my chores I try to look for something new 

But I never find you 

The Centaur and The Crab

Trapped between two worlds 

Half-beast and the other half an archer 

Shoot your arrow and watch me shred down to tatter

With your thick mane and form colossal

Consider putting up a fight with someone your size

'Coz I will strike and from those ashes I will rise

Mastermind , you speak so many tongue 

But to talk to me you don't bother

Suffocate me in air and under the water

Like nothing ever happened 

I will resume my journey to find

A creature thats special and to me thats kind

A creature that sleeps on my chest

As i play with the hair-strand

Blow air into sweat-dots to vanish at my command

My small being with my bolt shut door 

Will fall for it at the speed of love

In this life and next , before anyone eyes i'll make sure

You are the Centaur and I am the Crab

Yet my tiny Heart is not up for grab 

A Single Man

My raised shields,  they're part of my armor
But Inside , I'm still the same, A Single Man

He thinks of you , of me
Dreams of what is and what can be

He speaks to you in Inaudible Tongue
And feels, without the sense of touch

Calculates time for the next hug , that is not too soon
Your breath , from this close , will it settle on him soon

His eyes, they're doors to answers you may seek
Don't ask me , just know , thats where the walls are weak

He thought it was easy, He could just hold your hand
Go with the wind , to unkissed land

He thought he could just follow your lead
Step on your step , to know where , there is no need

But, If that easy it is and strangers we won't be
The sun will set at noon , into rivers will flow the sea

His journey , it starts but without his thoughts
They're still with you and they don't seem to move

He Promises he won't talk to strangers , on his way back
If only deep inside his armor ,
You place the puzzle piece that he lack

Reason To Believe

Every journey brings " the one " in the end

Every journey brings together the start and the end 

That one person from whom its difficult to transcend

Is it just me or is this just the trend 

I've been thinking about you a lot lately 

Ever since we went our separate ways

Squeezing time, even with thoughts to keep me worried, And

Enough work to keep me busy through the days 

In my journey called life yet ,

I've journeyed through India, Ireland and Italy 

You all " R " there ,  yet i cannot with any of you be

Vulnerable , Flawed , Needy , Imperfect , Thats just what makes me , me 

Ran out of reason , yet i cried 

Lost you to a dark space , like you just died

If you can hurt , you can love  

Don't know what i miss the most, I tried

Death of the heart ,

Is the ugliest death there is 

Never cross paths, we never talk 

Said you will but you never came back 

Weep for the love i will never have 

We can't be together , after all

Spend my time staring at the 

Scribbled Writings on the wall 

Look at them , come and go

Don't give it attention or it will only make it grow

This game of fast forwards and rewinds 

Touch , Tumble , Fall , Dominoes in a row

Things that attract you to a person

Are also things that drive you crazy

Bring me closer then push and shove

You really can't be realistic about love

Carry my heart on my sleeve

And you gave me so much reason to believe

In the love that lasts , through the whispers

A love that never fades away , leave