Turned that Light ....

Only still and clear waters
Show your reflections
I see myself 
But this isn't what you want me to be 


I am not strong , 
You are expecting too much from me 
Can't dwell in a body , in which i cannot breathe
I'm scared of closed spaces , don't suffocate me

Today is different
I slept in white light
Woke up mid-sleep , turned my room dark
To see light from the corner of the door beside
i turned that light off too !


Today im a bit lonely
But i don't want to be needy
I don't want melancholy 
I don't want your pitiful eyes
I'll break if i expose myself more to you


Am I too closed ? 
To never feel open again ?

Will you watch over me ?
I lament , I sing , I corrupt
And I dance a lonely life

They Don't Count Anymore

Sultry cold day
Silences with intermittent sound
Like blissful times with peeking darkness around

Of  leaves falling off from trees and the wind
Of a girl happily playing on the swing
Little girl , she doesn't know
What life might have in store
Dreams in her eyes
And a lifetime for more

If you grab my hand and pull me back
I'll curl into your arms and go back to sleep
I love recklessly , it consumes me
But promises I keep

I don't wish you were mine
Just know that from the inside I shine
Facing opposite sides but
Our feet , like winding roads intertwine

As you trace the line of my ear
I have my eye on , to make things last
But sometimes I take my heart out
and place it in a box
I let it cry it's heart out
And all these tears I count
Until they don't count anymore

Sometimes Shadows None

Bright lights and under them

Sometimes three, sometimes one 

Sometimes shadows none

Deep breathing , loud and clear

Quiet fractals, filled with fear

Sitting on a bench under the sun 

With the cold my eyes overflow 

Like its trying to tell me somethin'

See people walk by in groups of two or more 

Cyclists with their headphones for company 

Old lady's, hand in hand 

And I'm by myself

As the light starts to evade 

And the warmth from the sun starts to fade

Like you , it starts to leave me too 

It moves on to shine on the next bench , blue 

Be your truth , go free

Get lost and then be found 

Translucent images that surround 

Your smell , your touch and sound 

Same old day 

But time changes by the tick

And in my chores I try to look for something new 

But I never find you 

Awake

I live on the mysteries of a possibility

Only my past sleeps next to me 

No matter how close you want to feel, ignore  

You know that you've been on this road before 

I slide to come closer

You open your arms wide

Where I lie , right , left or center

Can be happy only by your side

Someday be the guy that everyone hates 

So that maybe I can be the one for you

People you know will become people you knew

Can't really be the one who keeps you,you 

Smoke up pain like a cigarette

Come on , hurt me like a bad hangover

Addict my flesh and bone and heart 

So that, tired of it, to love again I can start

You can't still be here

Not used to this , go away , you are late

Time to leave me

What should put me to sleep, only keeps me awake

Check or Mate

Two fish, their faces in different directions 
Yin, Yang they consider both side
Crab only looks at whats in front of him 
Listens only to voices from inside 

Distances , they can be tread 
Differences , we can amend 
Age with experience is a benevolent factor 
And I'll claw if you wanna be detractor 

Scars they heal 
But they leave a mark 
Swim deeper into my ocean 
Bring some light to where it's dark 

No cling , no fling 
Just what my heart doth sing 
Stupid and naive 
To life , my fantasies it brings

Stars they say , the fish will flow 
Follow my lead , now let's proceed 
One move yesterday , second one 
today 
Say Check or Mate , tell me what's my fate

Obsolete

I've totally been dreaming since we last spoke

See owls yet feel like I just up woke

My name it means a dream

That's all I ever do

Through light: yellow, pink and dark

Justify why I flirt with you

Why isn't this my story ?

Why can't crab and fish elope ?

As an answer to my query

You gave me some nervous hope

I went through the pages and pictures

In the past months that you wrote

Both creatures of the sea , similar

Through my words my feeling emote

Few lands and waters between us

Donno how , when , if , why we'd meet

Don't wanna rule out the possibility

Don't want things in the past to repeat

My boldness might be refreshing

But my style is obsolete

Don't think too much , just listen to my steady beat

And that's how 'I' complete

The Centaur and The Crab

Trapped between two worlds 

Half-beast and the other half an archer 

Shoot your arrow and watch me shred down to tatter

With your thick mane and form colossal

Consider putting up a fight with someone your size

'Coz I will strike and from those ashes I will rise

Mastermind , you speak so many tongue 

But to talk to me you don't bother

Suffocate me in air and under the water

Like nothing ever happened 

I will resume my journey to find

A creature thats special and to me thats kind

A creature that sleeps on my chest

As i play with the hair-strand

Blow air into sweat-dots to vanish at my command

My small being with my bolt shut door 

Will fall for it at the speed of love

In this life and next , before anyone eyes i'll make sure

You are the Centaur and I am the Crab

Yet my tiny Heart is not up for grab 

A Single Man

My raised shields,  they're part of my armor
But Inside , I'm still the same, A Single Man

He thinks of you , of me
Dreams of what is and what can be

He speaks to you in Inaudible Tongue
And feels, without the sense of touch

Calculates time for the next hug , that is not too soon
Your breath , from this close , will it settle on him soon

His eyes, they're doors to answers you may seek
Don't ask me , just know , thats where the walls are weak

He thought it was easy, He could just hold your hand
Go with the wind , to unkissed land

He thought he could just follow your lead
Step on your step , to know where , there is no need

But, If that easy it is and strangers we won't be
The sun will set at noon , into rivers will flow the sea

His journey , it starts but without his thoughts
They're still with you and they don't seem to move

He Promises he won't talk to strangers , on his way back
If only deep inside his armor ,
You place the puzzle piece that he lack

When the day starts at Night !!

When the day starts at night

I look at the moon bright

And wonder at the sight

Of cobbled streets and lamps alight

Walking Together 

Not worrying about traffic lights

And cars that could , you smother 

Lost in each other , we don't seem to bother

Telling stories of artists 

And sculptures , art innate

Through arches we pass and

Broken City Walls we wait 

We sit at the plaza

And play this game

I touch you four times

And you do the same 

You say , I bribed the pigeons 

To keep us at a distance

Lighten up the mood

Fills it with music , non-existent

We see them take flight , 

And different paths they tread 

One goes to the colossus 

Other to land of en vogue and trend

They Blow kisses to each other

From Island waters and beach 

Closing their eyes , still breath

Just hoping they'd reach

A different day , 

A different time ,

A different place , 

Another space , 

Maybe another land of rooftops and dome 

With each other , they will find themselves,home 

So That I Don't Feel So Alone

They say if you don't look for it 

It will come to you one day

But with each passing day I Atone 

So that I don't feel so alone

I turn off the light 

Lay my head on my wet pillow 

I bang my feet on my bed

To fill up the silence 

I sleep to people talking 

And remember the night , you left

And tore me apart , two halves

That keeps me some company 

You walked out my bed , 

And stood at the window ,

Moonlight on your face , 

A tear rolls down but it fills up the space

You wipe your tear unnoticed

While i slide my fingers over your shape

But i know this won't be no different

Cant live up to promises that we make 

You go crazy over someone 

Who's determined to push you away 

But your affection for someone 

Is no weakness , Its reason enough to stay 

Growing older since we met , 

Going colder than I ever dreamt

Made such that my heart knew what is beauty 

Still a wandering , meandering entity

Why won't you let me be your man , 

Fall in love as I write this song ,

Why won't you be my own

So that i don't feel so alone 

Reason To Believe

Every journey brings " the one " in the end

Every journey brings together the start and the end 

That one person from whom its difficult to transcend

Is it just me or is this just the trend 

I've been thinking about you a lot lately 

Ever since we went our separate ways

Squeezing time, even with thoughts to keep me worried, And

Enough work to keep me busy through the days 

In my journey called life yet ,

I've journeyed through India, Ireland and Italy 

You all " R " there ,  yet i cannot with any of you be

Vulnerable , Flawed , Needy , Imperfect , Thats just what makes me , me 

Ran out of reason , yet i cried 

Lost you to a dark space , like you just died

If you can hurt , you can love  

Don't know what i miss the most, I tried

Death of the heart ,

Is the ugliest death there is 

Never cross paths, we never talk 

Said you will but you never came back 

Weep for the love i will never have 

We can't be together , after all

Spend my time staring at the 

Scribbled Writings on the wall 

Look at them , come and go

Don't give it attention or it will only make it grow

This game of fast forwards and rewinds 

Touch , Tumble , Fall , Dominoes in a row

Things that attract you to a person

Are also things that drive you crazy

Bring me closer then push and shove

You really can't be realistic about love

Carry my heart on my sleeve

And you gave me so much reason to believe

In the love that lasts , through the whispers

A love that never fades away , leave

Lived it while it lasted

It was ok when you were needy
But when I reached for your touch you just pass by
It was ok when you cried
And got me even closer
Only now you say goodbye

Makes me wonder , if the tears you shed
Were because you knew you'd hurt me
And I hope that all the words you said
Would last every last page in history

It's so weird how one person decides two peoples fate
And this to me will always be a mystery
Wish I could turn back time
And live in my world of fantasy

It was ok when you said you've fast forwarded a hundred times
It was ok when you said I'm right there with you, don't you forget
You say god better not play THE prank this time
But so easily you do the same crime

When you love someone you give them the power to hurt you
Hurt me , I say, ruthlessly
I stand by my word , I won't change for anyone
I've learned to wander alone aimlessly

It ends before it even began
And my dreams I have tasted
I set you free from the clutch that I would be
I lived it while it lasted !!

Vulnerability

Vulnerability makes you weak

But I believe it will strengthen our bond
Reaching for your touch, your sound
Aching for your arms wrapped around

Wiping the tears that you bleed
Hard Heart mine , straight face
Away and now my eyes are twinkling
Expressing my love , if only you could read

My thoughts of you are loud
They shout out through the distance
They plead to never let me go
Holding Hands through every moons silence

In broad daylight I dream awake
And fast forward to the future
Your Scent on my skin still deep
And Stare at you while you fall asleep

You have my heart , Right?!
And it skips a few beat
Without you , scared of lonely
Say , it's gonna be alright

Corresponding ideas in our head
Attraversiamo : I'm crossing over, it's time
All possible damage already done
Just say that you'll be mine

Life and Imagination

2 pillows and this bed for two

Seem lonely without you
Conspicuous by your absence ,
I wish you'd just lie with me in silence

Blossoming Romance
And sleepless Nights ,
Insecurities about seeing you
In the dark and in broad daylights

Time passes by and after a while
Wonder if this is really happening , I smile
Not knowing what to speak or say
Answered prayers of many a day

A Ripple of thoughts
All going astray
Of rights and wrongs
And not pushing away

If life could match what we imagine,
A Star would fall at your command
And I'd wish upon that shooting star
To be there with you always and beyond

Venus or Eros

Someone's breath on the back of your neck

Someone you wake up to

Someone to move you aside when lost in thought you walk in the middle of the street

Someone who counts your silent heartbeat

Someone who gives you a love bite

Someone who hugs you through the night

Someone who let's you in ,

Someones touch, elixir to your skin

Unfazed by things people say

Ignoring all their remark

Who will decide whats right and wrong?

Want to be like this and for how long ?

Should everything you do, be for a reason ??

Should things you do always mean something ??

No agenda , No alternate intention

The randomness to Just be...

Naked around you even with my clothes on

When you stare at me deep

Don't stare into the dark corners of my heart

They've seen Pain ,Sorrow and promises that I couldn't keep

Maturity and experience don't come with age

Away but still on the same page

Will be your crying shoulder

Will be your best mate

But promises I haven't made

There's been love and I could not reciprocate

There've been things that are misunderstood

Signs that don't mean what they should

Then again , everything I do is not for a reason

Everything I do doesn't mean

There's No hidden agenda , No alternate intention

Here again , I'm just being Me