Why the city of Jodhpur is Blue ?

Let me tell you a story
There once was a girl young
Who lived in a castle
No voice to her tongue

She sat at the window
And dreamt of the day
When from her tyrant father
She could run away

One day, there came a stranger
Charming everyone with his flute
Who gave her the gift
One day of not being mute

She sang from the window
And to her surprise
Sprung at the clock tower
In the middle of the street

She talked to the trees
And played in the water
Lived in the beauty
In all of one day

She had to pay a price
Of which she didn't have a clue
For staying away from her father
The city would turn blue

I'll cry a happy tear

Don't want to corrupt
The memories of the past
By seeing you again
One last, One last time

Don't do it for the pity
As I try to make it last
I know, It won't
It won't go on forever

If what we had was friendship
And we were just good friends
Then I guess, this is a bad friendship
And it might as well end

One wish that you owe me
Will be my debt on you
Reminding you, your weakness
To keep in touch, It takes two

I'll miss a proper goodbye
But know, I only wish you the best
Selfishly, from your aloofness
Maybe I can now be at rest

You say your tear glands dried up
And there is no room for fear
But life is strange, and it will
To unknown pastures, steer

One day you will love someone
Enough to not let go
And in that day, coz you can't
For you, I'll cry a happy tear

ASHES FROM A LIT CIGARETTE

Whisper in my ear that there will be someone
At least someone who will not walk away
And I'll believe you , with a heavy heart
Even if I think it will never be

Something that didn't last long
But lasted longer than the last
Tell me that this is really the last time
Life won't always repeat the past

Tell me, I won't regret waiting for this long
Coz someone will come along
Tell me, I will be proven wrong
That this will be my last song

That someday when I go back to my bed
It won't be cold, There will linger another smell
That there will be another beating heart
And I'll be part of a presence

Then, I might be able to reason with my head
Or I might addict myself instead
But I'll feel alright tucked in your arm
And in that moment I'll learn to be calm

No, No, don't bring the stars to me
Sometimes, Just think of me
No, don't be my sunshine
Just hide me from the darkness

My insides are burning ,
And dropping ashes from a lit cigarette
Layer by layer I'm diminishing
Layer by layer still hoping for love

Tell me that before it burns out
I'll find in someone a friend
Tell me that I won't burn out
Tell me that this is not the end

Instead Of

As I lay beside you
Staring at half of your face
The other half inserted in the pillow
I tiny touch you
And as you go an inch away
I already miss you

I told you don't sleep away from me tonight
But I want to push you away
Im caught in between stealing a moment of tenderness 

And the emotion that it brings
What are you doing to me ?

I love the smell that comes from your kiss
Love how you tremble with my touch
How you clench and you wrench
And then you slowly fall asleep
I love how you sleep

How you sheepishly hold my hands
How you secretly touch my feet
Love how you grab me from the back
And how you walk with me on the street

I guess the list is endless
And it's all just an excuse
To wrap all of it into
Things that I love about you
Instead of just saying I love you !

Thats All I'll Ever Need

Of sweaty palms and smoky eyes
Of jungle chores and beach rides
Kitchen tables, and beds and pain
Of burnt knives and going insane

Only sounds of whooshing breath
Or voices from the Arabic sea
Of fitting perfectly , Still
And laying wide awake

Of learning to sleep with the music on
And letting it play to the break of dawn
Of knowing when I need a kiss
And giving me one more when I ask for it

Of gently rubbing fingers
And playing with your hair
Of beds too big, and times too short
Of always defining distance

Of walks in stormy weather
And flips and cows and tree
Of scarves and photographs
Of home-made food and italian coffee

A night full of laughter
A rain full of chatter
A nap on my chest
And no need to fill a silence
That's all I'll ever need 

WHY DOES A FREE SOUL LOOK TO BE BOUND ?

Clothe me with your warmth
And hug me tight like you don't have two arms but five
Let me breathe your breath
Let it be a reason to survive

Ive been burning out matchsticks
And blowing out smoke
Ive been sipping from straws
And loosing control

Every touch that isn't yours
Is betrayal to me
And I only aim to be a better person
Because the good in me , you see

You punctured me every time you didn't reply
You took it to a threshold
And broke the orchestrated symphony of my heart beat

Your past creates a pattern
You don't seem to have forgotten
Then why does a free soul look to be bound ?
Gosh ! This is such a contradiction

My best defence is to attack
You pull away , I break it
Why build up a story
Only to give up on it ?

It's scary , this feeling , that you might loose someone
That you might meet someone
Someone you'd laugh with
Someone you wouldn't care about

Don't close the door on your way out
Coz you might want to come back
Maybe if we wait and the stars are kind
The love we all want , we ll find

Profound Question

I've been shouting at the top of my voice
But my voice is unheard
Hours ahead and miles away
You're image is kinda blurred

People talk to me but I'm barely listening
They hold my hand , yet Im still untouched
My tremble , my addiction
Reveal my insides , out in the open

I wake up in the middle of the night
Because you've been far away from sight
Answer me , Even if there is no question
Reunite on the same land , If you cross over the ocean

I feel a void inside me
An aimless empty hollow
Like I've lost something, that won't be found
Something that was never even mine

After this , maybe it will end
But at least I will put my dreams to rest
Maybe the misery that fades to elude
Will be put to a test

I can't help but think
Of me in the big bed and the empty space around
Which of the two is more vast
Is the question that is more profound

Space in my Heart

In the remains of the night
You and me lying side by side
Space in my heart , I let you take up
Now I turn over and there's no one left to envelop

Wiggling through your hair
Making circles , undefined
You look at me and I try to find
If I'm visible in your eyes

When images start to haunt you
And ghosts become your friend
(They feed you fear and doubt)
When dark becomes a memory
A start comes to an end

I was willing to take care of you
I was willing to be there for you
But I set myself up for nothing that's at stake
All I wanted was to disconnect

But this isn't what our tears said
Claim your space in my heart , in my bed
I can only  love you more and more
With tears my eyes are sore

A Bird with the fear of heights .....

When my emotions run deeper
When I want to just be
I hope that you'll understand
Without a word to say

When I cannot reach you at a distance
But from feeling what i feel
That doesn't take away
When I'm having a bad hair day

When my tea is too hot *
And I bump my toe against the bed *
When I bite my tongue
And when a single mosquito turns me red

When I bang my head against a glass wall
That I thought wasn't there
When I make an egg 
That on the sunny side up doesn't fall

When there is nothing left to find
When people leave me behind
When even strangers are not kind
When I loose my mind

With the tiniest of things
I want you to linger
Stay and say I'm there
When I cut my little finger

When I hide into my shell
Say, You'll never leave me out of your sights
I don't want to be
A bird with the fear of heights