So That I Don't Feel So Alone

They say if you don't look for it 

It will come to you one day

But with each passing day I Atone 

So that I don't feel so alone

I turn off the light 

Lay my head on my wet pillow 

I bang my feet on my bed

To fill up the silence 

I sleep to people talking 

And remember the night , you left

And tore me apart , two halves

That keeps me some company 

You walked out my bed , 

And stood at the window ,

Moonlight on your face , 

A tear rolls down but it fills up the space

You wipe your tear unnoticed

While i slide my fingers over your shape

But i know this won't be no different

Cant live up to promises that we make 

You go crazy over someone 

Who's determined to push you away 

But your affection for someone 

Is no weakness , Its reason enough to stay 

Growing older since we met , 

Going colder than I ever dreamt

Made such that my heart knew what is beauty 

Still a wandering , meandering entity

Why won't you let me be your man , 

Fall in love as I write this song ,

Why won't you be my own

So that i don't feel so alone 

Reason To Believe

Every journey brings " the one " in the end

Every journey brings together the start and the end 

That one person from whom its difficult to transcend

Is it just me or is this just the trend 

I've been thinking about you a lot lately 

Ever since we went our separate ways

Squeezing time, even with thoughts to keep me worried, And

Enough work to keep me busy through the days 

In my journey called life yet ,

I've journeyed through India, Ireland and Italy 

You all " R " there ,  yet i cannot with any of you be

Vulnerable , Flawed , Needy , Imperfect , Thats just what makes me , me 

Ran out of reason , yet i cried 

Lost you to a dark space , like you just died

If you can hurt , you can love  

Don't know what i miss the most, I tried

Death of the heart ,

Is the ugliest death there is 

Never cross paths, we never talk 

Said you will but you never came back 

Weep for the love i will never have 

We can't be together , after all

Spend my time staring at the 

Scribbled Writings on the wall 

Look at them , come and go

Don't give it attention or it will only make it grow

This game of fast forwards and rewinds 

Touch , Tumble , Fall , Dominoes in a row

Things that attract you to a person

Are also things that drive you crazy

Bring me closer then push and shove

You really can't be realistic about love

Carry my heart on my sleeve

And you gave me so much reason to believe

In the love that lasts , through the whispers

A love that never fades away , leave

Lived it while it lasted

It was ok when you were needy
But when I reached for your touch you just pass by
It was ok when you cried
And got me even closer
Only now you say goodbye

Makes me wonder , if the tears you shed
Were because you knew you'd hurt me
And I hope that all the words you said
Would last every last page in history

It's so weird how one person decides two peoples fate
And this to me will always be a mystery
Wish I could turn back time
And live in my world of fantasy

It was ok when you said you've fast forwarded a hundred times
It was ok when you said I'm right there with you, don't you forget
You say god better not play THE prank this time
But so easily you do the same crime

When you love someone you give them the power to hurt you
Hurt me , I say, ruthlessly
I stand by my word , I won't change for anyone
I've learned to wander alone aimlessly

It ends before it even began
And my dreams I have tasted
I set you free from the clutch that I would be
I lived it while it lasted !!

Vulnerability

Vulnerability makes you weak

But I believe it will strengthen our bond
Reaching for your touch, your sound
Aching for your arms wrapped around

Wiping the tears that you bleed
Hard Heart mine , straight face
Away and now my eyes are twinkling
Expressing my love , if only you could read

My thoughts of you are loud
They shout out through the distance
They plead to never let me go
Holding Hands through every moons silence

In broad daylight I dream awake
And fast forward to the future
Your Scent on my skin still deep
And Stare at you while you fall asleep

You have my heart , Right?!
And it skips a few beat
Without you , scared of lonely
Say , it's gonna be alright

Corresponding ideas in our head
Attraversiamo : I'm crossing over, it's time
All possible damage already done
Just say that you'll be mine

Life and Imagination

2 pillows and this bed for two

Seem lonely without you
Conspicuous by your absence ,
I wish you'd just lie with me in silence

Blossoming Romance
And sleepless Nights ,
Insecurities about seeing you
In the dark and in broad daylights

Time passes by and after a while
Wonder if this is really happening , I smile
Not knowing what to speak or say
Answered prayers of many a day

A Ripple of thoughts
All going astray
Of rights and wrongs
And not pushing away

If life could match what we imagine,
A Star would fall at your command
And I'd wish upon that shooting star
To be there with you always and beyond

Venus or Eros

Someone's breath on the back of your neck

Someone you wake up to

Someone to move you aside when lost in thought you walk in the middle of the street

Someone who counts your silent heartbeat

Someone who gives you a love bite

Someone who hugs you through the night

Someone who let's you in ,

Someones touch, elixir to your skin

Unfazed by things people say

Ignoring all their remark

Who will decide whats right and wrong?

Want to be like this and for how long ?

Should everything you do, be for a reason ??

Should things you do always mean something ??

No agenda , No alternate intention

The randomness to Just be...

Naked around you even with my clothes on

When you stare at me deep

Don't stare into the dark corners of my heart

They've seen Pain ,Sorrow and promises that I couldn't keep

Maturity and experience don't come with age

Away but still on the same page

Will be your crying shoulder

Will be your best mate

But promises I haven't made

There's been love and I could not reciprocate

There've been things that are misunderstood

Signs that don't mean what they should

Then again , everything I do is not for a reason

Everything I do doesn't mean

There's No hidden agenda , No alternate intention

Here again , I'm just being Me

Stranger , Lover , Friend

Running around the lively streets

Singing songs at odd hours of the Silent night

I offer you my empty plate

And you feed me your first bite

Conversations about love about life

How things are always so difficult

Thinking of the unsettled future

and mysteries of the occult

Don't care about Big Pleasures,Big pain

Only care about things that last by the blink

Things that Move you to tears

And in that moment make you think

The Hardest of Hearts wish for intimacy

But Falling in Love is always the danger

You and Me , Us from Moon To Sun

Then apart

Stranger

Walking past you , headed towards destruction

Smile , Staying more difficult than leaving

Number , Didn't make the panic alert button ring

Touch, Contagious Infection

Theoretically Perfect , Idiot

Not you Its me , Ya Right

Bleed Tears , Of Desperation

Romantically Challenged, Always

Looking good Together , Dream

Interior Voice , Silent Scream

Think about you , Equals Time

Expectations , Crime

Stray Far Away , From Inner Caretaker

Stand on two feet , Out of Balance

Dance with you , Trance

Lover

Today when we talked you'd told me to put my heart out

And even though I disagree I'd still sent you a shout

But for some reason couldn't reach to you that line

And later on I thought maybe that is a sign

The heart of the matter lies in the release

Like everything else I let you go too

Insecurities about your date, Your new mate

Trapped Between Lungs, Less State

I've rushed into things and maybe I could slow time

Tender Kiss , High on Life

Sailing in the same boat , Equally loud Chime

No Stranger , No Lover

Friend