WHY DOES A FREE SOUL LOOK TO BE BOUND ?

Clothe me with your warmth
And hug me tight like you don't have two arms but five
Let me breathe your breath
Let it be a reason to survive

Ive been burning out matchsticks
And blowing out smoke
Ive been sipping from straws
And loosing control

Every touch that isn't yours
Is betrayal to me
And I only aim to be a better person
Because the good in me , you see

You punctured me every time you didn't reply
You took it to a threshold
And broke the orchestrated symphony of my heart beat

Your past creates a pattern
You don't seem to have forgotten
Then why does a free soul look to be bound ?
Gosh ! This is such a contradiction

My best defence is to attack
You pull away , I break it
Why build up a story
Only to give up on it ?

It's scary , this feeling , that you might loose someone
That you might meet someone
Someone you'd laugh with
Someone you wouldn't care about

Don't close the door on your way out
Coz you might want to come back
Maybe if we wait and the stars are kind
The love we all want , we ll find

Profound Question

I've been shouting at the top of my voice
But my voice is unheard
Hours ahead and miles away
You're image is kinda blurred

People talk to me but I'm barely listening
They hold my hand , yet Im still untouched
My tremble , my addiction
Reveal my insides , out in the open

I wake up in the middle of the night
Because you've been far away from sight
Answer me , Even if there is no question
Reunite on the same land , If you cross over the ocean

I feel a void inside me
An aimless empty hollow
Like I've lost something, that won't be found
Something that was never even mine

After this , maybe it will end
But at least I will put my dreams to rest
Maybe the misery that fades to elude
Will be put to a test

I can't help but think
Of me in the big bed and the empty space around
Which of the two is more vast
Is the question that is more profound

Space in my Heart

In the remains of the night
You and me lying side by side
Space in my heart , I let you take up
Now I turn over and there's no one left to envelop

Wiggling through your hair
Making circles , undefined
You look at me and I try to find
If I'm visible in your eyes

When images start to haunt you
And ghosts become your friend
(They feed you fear and doubt)
When dark becomes a memory
A start comes to an end

I was willing to take care of you
I was willing to be there for you
But I set myself up for nothing that's at stake
All I wanted was to disconnect

But this isn't what our tears said
Claim your space in my heart , in my bed
I can only  love you more and more
With tears my eyes are sore

A Bird with the fear of heights .....

When my emotions run deeper
When I want to just be
I hope that you'll understand
Without a word to say

When I cannot reach you at a distance
But from feeling what i feel
That doesn't take away
When I'm having a bad hair day

When my tea is too hot *
And I bump my toe against the bed *
When I bite my tongue
And when a single mosquito turns me red

When I bang my head against a glass wall
That I thought wasn't there
When I make an egg 
That on the sunny side up doesn't fall

When there is nothing left to find
When people leave me behind
When even strangers are not kind
When I loose my mind

With the tiniest of things
I want you to linger
Stay and say I'm there
When I cut my little finger

When I hide into my shell
Say, You'll never leave me out of your sights
I don't want to be
A bird with the fear of heights

Turned that Light ....

Only still and clear waters
Show your reflections
I see myself 
But this isn't what you want me to be 


I am not strong , 
You are expecting too much from me 
Can't dwell in a body , in which i cannot breathe
I'm scared of closed spaces , don't suffocate me

Today is different
I slept in white light
Woke up mid-sleep , turned my room dark
To see light from the corner of the door beside
i turned that light off too !


Today im a bit lonely
But i don't want to be needy
I don't want melancholy 
I don't want your pitiful eyes
I'll break if i expose myself more to you


Am I too closed ? 
To never feel open again ?

Will you watch over me ?
I lament , I sing , I corrupt
And I dance a lonely life

They Don't Count Anymore

Sultry cold day
Silences with intermittent sound
Like blissful times with peeking darkness around

Of  leaves falling off from trees and the wind
Of a girl happily playing on the swing
Little girl , she doesn't know
What life might have in store
Dreams in her eyes
And a lifetime for more

If you grab my hand and pull me back
I'll curl into your arms and go back to sleep
I love recklessly , it consumes me
But promises I keep

I don't wish you were mine
Just know that from the inside I shine
Facing opposite sides but
Our feet , like winding roads intertwine

As you trace the line of my ear
I have my eye on , to make things last
But sometimes I take my heart out
and place it in a box
I let it cry it's heart out
And all these tears I count
Until they don't count anymore

Sometimes Shadows None

Bright lights and under them

Sometimes three, sometimes one 

Sometimes shadows none

Deep breathing , loud and clear

Quiet fractals, filled with fear

Sitting on a bench under the sun 

With the cold my eyes overflow 

Like its trying to tell me somethin'

See people walk by in groups of two or more 

Cyclists with their headphones for company 

Old lady's, hand in hand 

And I'm by myself

As the light starts to evade 

And the warmth from the sun starts to fade

Like you , it starts to leave me too 

It moves on to shine on the next bench , blue 

Be your truth , go free

Get lost and then be found 

Translucent images that surround 

Your smell , your touch and sound 

Same old day 

But time changes by the tick

And in my chores I try to look for something new 

But I never find you