Why the city of Jodhpur is Blue ?

Let me tell you a story
There once was a girl young
Who lived in a castle
No voice to her tongue

She sat at the window
And dreamt of the day
When from her tyrant father
She could run away

One day, there came a stranger
Charming everyone with his flute
Who gave her the gift
One day of not being mute

She sang from the window
And to her surprise
Sprung at the clock tower
In the middle of the street

She talked to the trees
And played in the water
Lived in the beauty
In all of one day

She had to pay a price
Of which she didn't have a clue
For staying away from her father
The city would turn blue

I'll cry a happy tear

Don't want to corrupt
The memories of the past
By seeing you again
One last, One last time

Don't do it for the pity
As I try to make it last
I know, It won't
It won't go on forever

If what we had was friendship
And we were just good friends
Then I guess, this is a bad friendship
And it might as well end

One wish that you owe me
Will be my debt on you
Reminding you, your weakness
To keep in touch, It takes two

I'll miss a proper goodbye
But know, I only wish you the best
Selfishly, from your aloofness
Maybe I can now be at rest

You say your tear glands dried up
And there is no room for fear
But life is strange, and it will
To unknown pastures, steer

One day you will love someone
Enough to not let go
And in that day, coz you can't
For you, I'll cry a happy tear

ASHES FROM A LIT CIGARETTE

Whisper in my ear that there will be someone
At least someone who will not walk away
And I'll believe you , with a heavy heart
Even if I think it will never be

Something that didn't last long
But lasted longer than the last
Tell me that this is really the last time
Life won't always repeat the past

Tell me, I won't regret waiting for this long
Coz someone will come along
Tell me, I will be proven wrong
That this will be my last song

That someday when I go back to my bed
It won't be cold, There will linger another smell
That there will be another beating heart
And I'll be part of a presence

Then, I might be able to reason with my head
Or I might addict myself instead
But I'll feel alright tucked in your arm
And in that moment I'll learn to be calm

No, No, don't bring the stars to me
Sometimes, Just think of me
No, don't be my sunshine
Just hide me from the darkness

My insides are burning ,
And dropping ashes from a lit cigarette
Layer by layer I'm diminishing
Layer by layer still hoping for love

Tell me that before it burns out
I'll find in someone a friend
Tell me that I won't burn out
Tell me that this is not the end

Instead Of

As I lay beside you
Staring at half of your face
The other half inserted in the pillow
I tiny touch you
And as you go an inch away
I already miss you

I told you don't sleep away from me tonight
But I want to push you away
Im caught in between stealing a moment of tenderness 

And the emotion that it brings
What are you doing to me ?

I love the smell that comes from your kiss
Love how you tremble with my touch
How you clench and you wrench
And then you slowly fall asleep
I love how you sleep

How you sheepishly hold my hands
How you secretly touch my feet
Love how you grab me from the back
And how you walk with me on the street

I guess the list is endless
And it's all just an excuse
To wrap all of it into
Things that I love about you
Instead of just saying I love you !

Thats All I'll Ever Need

Of sweaty palms and smoky eyes
Of jungle chores and beach rides
Kitchen tables, and beds and pain
Of burnt knives and going insane

Only sounds of whooshing breath
Or voices from the Arabic sea
Of fitting perfectly , Still
And laying wide awake

Of learning to sleep with the music on
And letting it play to the break of dawn
Of knowing when I need a kiss
And giving me one more when I ask for it

Of gently rubbing fingers
And playing with your hair
Of beds too big, and times too short
Of always defining distance

Of walks in stormy weather
And flips and cows and tree
Of scarves and photographs
Of home-made food and italian coffee

A night full of laughter
A rain full of chatter
A nap on my chest
And no need to fill a silence
That's all I'll ever need 

WHY DOES A FREE SOUL LOOK TO BE BOUND ?

Clothe me with your warmth
And hug me tight like you don't have two arms but five
Let me breathe your breath
Let it be a reason to survive

Ive been burning out matchsticks
And blowing out smoke
Ive been sipping from straws
And loosing control

Every touch that isn't yours
Is betrayal to me
And I only aim to be a better person
Because the good in me , you see

You punctured me every time you didn't reply
You took it to a threshold
And broke the orchestrated symphony of my heart beat

Your past creates a pattern
You don't seem to have forgotten
Then why does a free soul look to be bound ?
Gosh ! This is such a contradiction

My best defence is to attack
You pull away , I break it
Why build up a story
Only to give up on it ?

It's scary , this feeling , that you might loose someone
That you might meet someone
Someone you'd laugh with
Someone you wouldn't care about

Don't close the door on your way out
Coz you might want to come back
Maybe if we wait and the stars are kind
The love we all want , we ll find

Profound Question

I've been shouting at the top of my voice
But my voice is unheard
Hours ahead and miles away
You're image is kinda blurred

People talk to me but I'm barely listening
They hold my hand , yet Im still untouched
My tremble , my addiction
Reveal my insides , out in the open

I wake up in the middle of the night
Because you've been far away from sight
Answer me , Even if there is no question
Reunite on the same land , If you cross over the ocean

I feel a void inside me
An aimless empty hollow
Like I've lost something, that won't be found
Something that was never even mine

After this , maybe it will end
But at least I will put my dreams to rest
Maybe the misery that fades to elude
Will be put to a test

I can't help but think
Of me in the big bed and the empty space around
Which of the two is more vast
Is the question that is more profound

Space in my Heart

In the remains of the night
You and me lying side by side
Space in my heart , I let you take up
Now I turn over and there's no one left to envelop

Wiggling through your hair
Making circles , undefined
You look at me and I try to find
If I'm visible in your eyes

When images start to haunt you
And ghosts become your friend
(They feed you fear and doubt)
When dark becomes a memory
A start comes to an end

I was willing to take care of you
I was willing to be there for you
But I set myself up for nothing that's at stake
All I wanted was to disconnect

But this isn't what our tears said
Claim your space in my heart , in my bed
I can only  love you more and more
With tears my eyes are sore

A Bird with the fear of heights .....

When my emotions run deeper
When I want to just be
I hope that you'll understand
Without a word to say

When I cannot reach you at a distance
But from feeling what i feel
That doesn't take away
When I'm having a bad hair day

When my tea is too hot *
And I bump my toe against the bed *
When I bite my tongue
And when a single mosquito turns me red

When I bang my head against a glass wall
That I thought wasn't there
When I make an egg 
That on the sunny side up doesn't fall

When there is nothing left to find
When people leave me behind
When even strangers are not kind
When I loose my mind

With the tiniest of things
I want you to linger
Stay and say I'm there
When I cut my little finger

When I hide into my shell
Say, You'll never leave me out of your sights
I don't want to be
A bird with the fear of heights

Turned that Light ....

Only still and clear waters
Show your reflections
I see myself 
But this isn't what you want me to be 


I am not strong , 
You are expecting too much from me 
Can't dwell in a body , in which i cannot breathe
I'm scared of closed spaces , don't suffocate me

Today is different
I slept in white light
Woke up mid-sleep , turned my room dark
To see light from the corner of the door beside
i turned that light off too !


Today im a bit lonely
But i don't want to be needy
I don't want melancholy 
I don't want your pitiful eyes
I'll break if i expose myself more to you


Am I too closed ? 
To never feel open again ?

Will you watch over me ?
I lament , I sing , I corrupt
And I dance a lonely life

They Don't Count Anymore

Sultry cold day
Silences with intermittent sound
Like blissful times with peeking darkness around

Of  leaves falling off from trees and the wind
Of a girl happily playing on the swing
Little girl , she doesn't know
What life might have in store
Dreams in her eyes
And a lifetime for more

If you grab my hand and pull me back
I'll curl into your arms and go back to sleep
I love recklessly , it consumes me
But promises I keep

I don't wish you were mine
Just know that from the inside I shine
Facing opposite sides but
Our feet , like winding roads intertwine

As you trace the line of my ear
I have my eye on , to make things last
But sometimes I take my heart out
and place it in a box
I let it cry it's heart out
And all these tears I count
Until they don't count anymore

Sometimes Shadows None

Bright lights and under them

Sometimes three, sometimes one 

Sometimes shadows none

Deep breathing , loud and clear

Quiet fractals, filled with fear

Sitting on a bench under the sun 

With the cold my eyes overflow 

Like its trying to tell me somethin'

See people walk by in groups of two or more 

Cyclists with their headphones for company 

Old lady's, hand in hand 

And I'm by myself

As the light starts to evade 

And the warmth from the sun starts to fade

Like you , it starts to leave me too 

It moves on to shine on the next bench , blue 

Be your truth , go free

Get lost and then be found 

Translucent images that surround 

Your smell , your touch and sound 

Same old day 

But time changes by the tick

And in my chores I try to look for something new 

But I never find you 

Awake

I live on the mysteries of a possibility

Only my past sleeps next to me 

No matter how close you want to feel, ignore  

You know that you've been on this road before 

I slide to come closer

You open your arms wide

Where I lie , right , left or center

Can be happy only by your side

Someday be the guy that everyone hates 

So that maybe I can be the one for you

People you know will become people you knew

Can't really be the one who keeps you,you 

Smoke up pain like a cigarette

Come on , hurt me like a bad hangover

Addict my flesh and bone and heart 

So that, tired of it, to love again I can start

You can't still be here

Not used to this , go away , you are late

Time to leave me

What should put me to sleep, only keeps me awake

Check or Mate

Two fish, their faces in different directions 
Yin, Yang they consider both side
Crab only looks at whats in front of him 
Listens only to voices from inside 

Distances , they can be tread 
Differences , we can amend 
Age with experience is a benevolent factor 
And I'll claw if you wanna be detractor 

Scars they heal 
But they leave a mark 
Swim deeper into my ocean 
Bring some light to where it's dark 

No cling , no fling 
Just what my heart doth sing 
Stupid and naive 
To life , my fantasies it brings

Stars they say , the fish will flow 
Follow my lead , now let's proceed 
One move yesterday , second one 
today 
Say Check or Mate , tell me what's my fate

Obsolete

I've totally been dreaming since we last spoke

See owls yet feel like I just up woke

My name it means a dream

That's all I ever do

Through light: yellow, pink and dark

Justify why I flirt with you

Why isn't this my story ?

Why can't crab and fish elope ?

As an answer to my query

You gave me some nervous hope

I went through the pages and pictures

In the past months that you wrote

Both creatures of the sea , similar

Through my words my feeling emote

Few lands and waters between us

Donno how , when , if , why we'd meet

Don't wanna rule out the possibility

Don't want things in the past to repeat

My boldness might be refreshing

But my style is obsolete

Don't think too much , just listen to my steady beat

And that's how 'I' complete

The Centaur and The Crab

Trapped between two worlds 

Half-beast and the other half an archer 

Shoot your arrow and watch me shred down to tatter

With your thick mane and form colossal

Consider putting up a fight with someone your size

'Coz I will strike and from those ashes I will rise

Mastermind , you speak so many tongue 

But to talk to me you don't bother

Suffocate me in air and under the water

Like nothing ever happened 

I will resume my journey to find

A creature thats special and to me thats kind

A creature that sleeps on my chest

As i play with the hair-strand

Blow air into sweat-dots to vanish at my command

My small being with my bolt shut door 

Will fall for it at the speed of love

In this life and next , before anyone eyes i'll make sure

You are the Centaur and I am the Crab

Yet my tiny Heart is not up for grab 

A Single Man

My raised shields,  they're part of my armor
But Inside , I'm still the same, A Single Man

He thinks of you , of me
Dreams of what is and what can be

He speaks to you in Inaudible Tongue
And feels, without the sense of touch

Calculates time for the next hug , that is not too soon
Your breath , from this close , will it settle on him soon

His eyes, they're doors to answers you may seek
Don't ask me , just know , thats where the walls are weak

He thought it was easy, He could just hold your hand
Go with the wind , to unkissed land

He thought he could just follow your lead
Step on your step , to know where , there is no need

But, If that easy it is and strangers we won't be
The sun will set at noon , into rivers will flow the sea

His journey , it starts but without his thoughts
They're still with you and they don't seem to move

He Promises he won't talk to strangers , on his way back
If only deep inside his armor ,
You place the puzzle piece that he lack

When the day starts at Night !!

When the day starts at night

I look at the moon bright

And wonder at the sight

Of cobbled streets and lamps alight

Walking Together 

Not worrying about traffic lights

And cars that could , you smother 

Lost in each other , we don't seem to bother

Telling stories of artists 

And sculptures , art innate

Through arches we pass and

Broken City Walls we wait 

We sit at the plaza

And play this game

I touch you four times

And you do the same 

You say , I bribed the pigeons 

To keep us at a distance

Lighten up the mood

Fills it with music , non-existent

We see them take flight , 

And different paths they tread 

One goes to the colossus 

Other to land of en vogue and trend

They Blow kisses to each other

From Island waters and beach 

Closing their eyes , still breath

Just hoping they'd reach

A different day , 

A different time ,

A different place , 

Another space , 

Maybe another land of rooftops and dome 

With each other , they will find themselves,home 

So That I Don't Feel So Alone

They say if you don't look for it 

It will come to you one day

But with each passing day I Atone 

So that I don't feel so alone

I turn off the light 

Lay my head on my wet pillow 

I bang my feet on my bed

To fill up the silence 

I sleep to people talking 

And remember the night , you left

And tore me apart , two halves

That keeps me some company 

You walked out my bed , 

And stood at the window ,

Moonlight on your face , 

A tear rolls down but it fills up the space

You wipe your tear unnoticed

While i slide my fingers over your shape

But i know this won't be no different

Cant live up to promises that we make 

You go crazy over someone 

Who's determined to push you away 

But your affection for someone 

Is no weakness , Its reason enough to stay 

Growing older since we met , 

Going colder than I ever dreamt

Made such that my heart knew what is beauty 

Still a wandering , meandering entity

Why won't you let me be your man , 

Fall in love as I write this song ,

Why won't you be my own

So that i don't feel so alone 

Reason To Believe

Every journey brings " the one " in the end

Every journey brings together the start and the end 

That one person from whom its difficult to transcend

Is it just me or is this just the trend 

I've been thinking about you a lot lately 

Ever since we went our separate ways

Squeezing time, even with thoughts to keep me worried, And

Enough work to keep me busy through the days 

In my journey called life yet ,

I've journeyed through India, Ireland and Italy 

You all " R " there ,  yet i cannot with any of you be

Vulnerable , Flawed , Needy , Imperfect , Thats just what makes me , me 

Ran out of reason , yet i cried 

Lost you to a dark space , like you just died

If you can hurt , you can love  

Don't know what i miss the most, I tried

Death of the heart ,

Is the ugliest death there is 

Never cross paths, we never talk 

Said you will but you never came back 

Weep for the love i will never have 

We can't be together , after all

Spend my time staring at the 

Scribbled Writings on the wall 

Look at them , come and go

Don't give it attention or it will only make it grow

This game of fast forwards and rewinds 

Touch , Tumble , Fall , Dominoes in a row

Things that attract you to a person

Are also things that drive you crazy

Bring me closer then push and shove

You really can't be realistic about love

Carry my heart on my sleeve

And you gave me so much reason to believe

In the love that lasts , through the whispers

A love that never fades away , leave