Love Affair !!!!!

Hand in Hand all the time

But sometimes I don't realize ,

Under these clear blue skies

That I am with you

You gave me love , you gave me sorrow

A Friendship that ll last forever ,

You will be my tomorrow

Pleasure and pain put together

One look into your eyes

Realized who I am as a person

You gave me the courage to be me

You are the one who set me free

With you I can do the impossible

Got back up every time I did slide

Can now make it big anywhere

Now that you are on my side ,

I like waking up on the other side

And looking at you fills me with joy

My face lights up like a child

Who watches the building blocks of a Lego toy

You are not a person

But you mean much more to me

New York , I Love You

You fill my life up with glee

Sunrise on the Brooklyn Bridge

Evening runs in Central Park

Lonely Subway rides at wee hours of the night

With you , everything just seems right

Standing under Washington square arch

Coffee at the nearby Starbucks

Frozen yogurt at St. Marks

All dressed up for the Halloween March

So much happiness , so much love

Fill my eyes up with tear

Nothing like a really long chat

At the piers on the Hudson river

Even when I am gone

Our love affair is what will last

Remembering each moment I spent

All through the year that pass'd

You are not a person

But you mean much more to me

New York , I Love You

You fill my life up with glee

Even Though I Havent Seen You Since!!!!

Somebody slow me down

Somebody stop me

You were a big upgrade from my past

But Maybe I rushed into things too fast

My heart always takes over my mind

It's really easy for me to like someone nice

You at least cared about me and my feelings

But in the end I always pay the price

Beauty is timeless , relationships are ageless

Whatever we had was priceless

Love is not all about the pain

But it's been just about it for me

I don't know if you wish to get back to your last

I don't know much about your past

Don't know if you want to move on

I wanted to but thought it would be intruding

Never wanted to fight

But i feel I want to fight for your love

I can't stop thinking about it

Need some more energy from above

You say you want to hang out

But to my messages you reply really small

To my wishes , thanks and to my concerns I'm fine

I know that i have risked the fall

You pushed me away

To the end of this ledge

It's upto you to push me some more

Or pull me back from the edge

You say you are complicated

But you don't have to worry about me

I've done this before

And more than one tear i have shed

Take the c instead of the a

Coz your stop is on that track

For a glimpse of you , even though you pushed me away

All my emotions piled up in a stack

I wish I knew how to hide my feelings

Started loving you more since You let me go

And I cry over you again and again

Coz you love someone else, I know

Everyone tells me that i should be happy

You weren't like anyone else

But my heart and my mind isn't one entity

They both don't understand each other and thats a pity

The other day in a state of trance

With all the smoke around I started to dance

Eyes wide shut , I caught a glimpse

Even though I haven't seen you since

CHAOS MAGNET

For Anyone I like i write a song
And this one Is for you
Usually are hateful or sad ones
But this ones none of the two

I just want to remember you
And with these lines I will
Complicated each time
Somehow i still won't sit still

This heart did break even
Still a part feels like with you stay'd
Soon there won't be any more left
With each part someone already would've play'd

Theoretically you said I was perfect
And in person you were too
No grudges , no regrets
You get only what you are meant to

Holding hands makes you uncomfortable
And to me stings your silence
Mixed signals, all done and gone
Why still wouldn't you take this chance ???

You are still in love with someone
I saw it in your eyes red
Sent me away with a smile , and in that moment
It felt like Nothing was left unsaid

Made it so much easy
Don't feel like I'm falling off the edge
Still not the right time
When really will it, god , to you I pledge

Blessed with people in life
Who always my feelings nurse
Sealed friendships can't be broken

With No magic , no curse

I am attracted to chaos
I questioned if I did anything wrong
You said it wasn't me , it was you
With one tear , I end this song

Unsaid

How can I move on
I'm still in love with you
Love tears us apart
But I am still stuck on you

Like every moment together was untrue
You Ask me if I still feel awkward to talk to you
Love is the best thing, knows everyone
But Is it still love if it makes you feel blue

Still wish that one day things change
And you decide to come back to me
One of these days I wake up and you say
Baby, I am here to stay

Revisiting the corner where we once met
Thought I had the strength to easily forget
Only one set of footprints in the sand
I wander the streets like I am in no mans land

Wish you read the songs I write to you
Wish you know how much you mean to me
A corner in your heart that's just for me
Love has no binds no boundary

So many things have changed since we met
Trying too hard , maybe that's why I can't forget
Maybe it's just not the right time
Still loving you I'm sure will not be a crime

Takes two to clap
Takes two to be two-gether
Tell me if I should save my love
For someone who feels the same way too!!!

They say, wait for someone who calls when you hang up
Someone who if you take a step back , to you will walkup
Wait for someone who kisses your FOREHEAD
You did and still why are there so many words left Unsaid!!!!

This is my Happy Song

This Is my new happy song
I've had enough of the ones that are sad
You Changed my lovely to lonely
But somehow I still don't want to feel bad

When a heart breaks it does not break even
But happy is the heart that still feels pain
We live in this world for days seven
If spent in grieving there ll be nothing to gain

Have had chances at consciousness altering love
And I always let my heart go there
Not waiting for any second chances anymore
Love will find me and when it does it won't find me sore

Love is not , and I will never play the game
Heart over Mind, I will always be the same
Still waiting for love to happen to me
Waiting from the shackles of sadness to be free

Mustve heard this before
Just keep this line playing on rerun
The greatest thing you ll ever learn
Is to love and be loved in return

Sometimes feel misfit but
With the ones in love I am trying to blend
Will have my happily ever after soon
The End

Fine Without You

I liked you and didn't expect anything in return
But I realised that I don't deserve to be felt less important
I don't deserve to be hurt
I deserve to be happy
And thats not what was happening

People told me that I deserved better
Someone whom I loved and who loved me forever
I was blinded by your touch and didn't agree and still don't
But I do know what i am worth

Always been a sucker for pain
But I cannot go through the grind
I am going to change how I am coz
Happiness is just a state of your mind

My trust in love is shaken
But I always will truly believe in it
If not now maybe sometime late
Soon I know I will find my soulmate

They say experience is a hard teacher,
You give the test first and then learn the lesson
I dont have the strength to look anymore
You do it now my special person

Find me and tell me your mine
Everything in the past, think I ll be fine
Tides change and time will too
I am gonna be fine , fine without you !!!!

My Heart Still Weeps

Sitting at this bookstore all reckless and abandoned
Into my Murky hole of bottomless grief
Have met you after so long
That is the only relief

Wanted to feel how it'd be to see you again
Wanted to understand how my heart will react after all the pain
Letting you do things that you have to , want to
While I don't so that I get to spend time with you

Eating ,walking, loving my emotions were on a hike
Interest in diverse things in me is what you said you like
Laughing out loud at this line that set the mood
You should be with me coz together we look good

Know you want to tell me something
Some feelings that you are hiding from me
But you mutter words like you're uttering in your sleep
I don't really know why still it makes me weep

So many thoughts rushing all at once
So many insecurities building at the crust
let me give you a chance, I take this call
Thinking that this might be it after all

You're insecurities are your own to keep
Deal with them just put them off to sleep
Won't say anything although would want to take the leap
Even after all this i don't know why my heart still weeps